I think its safe to say it was not enjoyable the first time. It did not happen they way I wanted it to happen, in fact I wasraped. But it made me who ... am today and so it is a party of me. I have a fetish for men dominating me and rough sex. It has always been a part of me and I think losing my virginity for the first time had a lot to do with it. The events I describe are to the best of my recollection. Some of the story is filled in with What I though might have happened. I was very, very. He firmly pulled it forward to his lap. I slid my hand in under his hefty balls and moved my head onto the firm muscles of his abdomen. I was inches from one of the most porno sized cocks I’d ever been with. I stroked Henry’s cock and Henry stroked my hair.I think Henry would have been fine with just a hand job. But, as I slurped from his dick head down to his balls and back a few times, he moaned, “Ummm. Keep that up.”. True to Henry’s condition, he jerked and moved his thighs and hips as my. They thought it was cute and adorable as a small child.As I got older I quickly realized it wasn't considered cute any more and in fact there was something wrong with any boy who dressed as a little girl and boys just don't do that. These types of comments were commonplace. A boy is expected to be a boy and girls are supposed to do girl things and that was that. Many times the comments went something like this... you don't want to do that it's a girly thing or stop that you're a boy... So. ”“So was Steve, but he ran into a couple of girls, Melanie and Jennifer, who I guess turned him into the school stud.”“In MY dreams!”“It really got out of hand, though. I broke up with him once because I just couldn’t deal with his scores and scores of girls. Well, I didn’t know for sure, but some of the kids on the chess team talked. Basically, he was two-timing me, but that was kind of his thing. He always had multiple girlfriends.”“But you got back together?”“I like him, a lot, so I decided.