Just when you think they've finishedgrowing, they manage to pull one last growth spurt out of thin air."The saleswoman (her tag said, "Marva") nodded ...greement. "My boy,Charlie blew through two shoe sizes before Christmas his first year ofcollege." She took a tape and measured me around my chest just under mybreasts, then again across my nipples. Catching my quizzical look, sheasked. "Haven't you ever been sized for a bra before?" No, ma'am," I said. Sensing that the answer needed. Embarrassed. You can feel your nipples grow beneath the shear wet fabric. You tell yourself that it’s only the cold. But you track his eyes for one more moment. You wonder if he notices your round hard nipples, reaching out for freedom from the shear wet fabric. But this moment passes and you answer him. ‘I’m okay.’ You lie. You watch him watch you for another moment. You will your nipples down. But they grow harder still. And reach out to him. It’s just the cold. Nothing more. Then you. "She simply apologized for running out on us and leaving us full of worry," Luke mumbles, looking up from the floor as I nod in agreement, swallowing. I see Danny's mouth open from the corner of my eye and I speak up, cutting him off before he has the chance to ask any more questions, "I, for one, am sick of this damn bus. Can we please stop at a hotel tonight?" I ask, fluttering my eye lashes at my brother as my bottom lip puffs out. "Why?" Danny asks, his eyes darkening. "Because, that’s why!. We have agreed to be friends and I am trying my hardest not to break this verbal agreement but I cannot help wanting to push the boundaries either. For my own sick, self-satisfaction, I want to tell him how I still feel and to hear him say that he still loves me, too. Yet another selfish thing that shows how horrible I can actually be. But, Dear Diary, I promised you cheerful didn't I? Well, you'll be glad to know that a silver lining has shone through the clouds in an unexpected, delicate form.