"But I call itwinning. Good night everyone, see you next week."I went home that night feeling more empowered than I had since mychange. I watched some...bad TV and went to bed. You cannot overestimatethe power of a good night`s sleep without nightmares.Tuesday was uneventful. I carried on with my work. Wednesday night,Sarah came round for a wedding dress fitting. As predicted, she lookedamazing. At the minute, it would need taking in a bit, but that couldwait until a couple of weeks before the. The girls out number the men here by 3 to 1 so competition is fierce I suppose to find a man you like and can go out with.One afternoon at that same little bar, a couple and this single man started talking to me and we had several drinks. I started getting a little drunk and as it grew dark, the time seemed to slip away from us. The guys were both good looking even at their advanced age and the women was pretty herself. She and I excused ourselves to go to the restroom and while walking away. ”Hayley knew she had to unload to someone, she trusted Suzy with her life. Slowly, she told her the whole story, Suzy listening without interrupting but the look on her face betrayed how shocked she was.“So come on then,” Hayley said when the room had fallen silent, “tell me l’m mad at least, if not bad.”“I don’t think you’re bad,” Suzy replied, “it has been hard for you, bringing up Charlie on your own. I’m not surprised that he fancies you, that’s been obvious for a while.”“What do you mean?”. I’d hide in my room and wonder, crying, asking myself why, how could you be so cruel to me? Mom and dad just said it was a boy thing, that you were growing up. It was normal that you wouldn’t hold my hand when we walked anymore, that you didn’t want the other boys to see you with your older sister, that you didn’t want to play with me. I hated it. I wanted things back to the way they were. Mom and dad couldn’t understand how I felt. When we played family, you always had to be the husband and I.