Does she like me or love or just infactuasation . I was confused . Next day an idea struck to my mind . Why shouldn’t i approach her in a different ...ngle. I was thinking and got an idea to record all my voice and feeling on to the tape recorder. I had done the same and went to her and asked her to listen to the cassette . She said what is this I told her it is good music and please listen only in alone. And I left the place. I could not go to her place because of fear. She would tell to her. You've made me feel uncomfortable. I'm not mad at you or anything, it's just coming at me a little faster than I ever expected. I'm supposed to be engaged and suddenly I'm feeling guilty, I think. We're friends and I want to stay that way, so I don't want anything to happen I haven't thought through. You understand, right?" She said suddenly sitting up and putting her feet on the floor."What ever you want, Junie, I understand. Don't feel bad. I thought a lot about what I was going to say before. I went to her home at 9:30 pm and rang the bell. She opened the door and was stunned to see her in saree. I went in and tried to kiss her. She pushed me and said to eat first.After dinner, she said to wait in the bedroom. She came in after with a milk glass. It was like the first night. I asked her what is this. She said that it was her first time and she wanted to happen on her first night only. I felt happy and we shared the milk like a new married couple. She said the first time should be. Van promised to make it worth her while with some coke and some grass as well, which clinched the deal for Julie, as she was relying on both drugs more all the time to get through the nights.Now she sat here looking at this supposedly dumb jock that she'd set out to fuck and forget, and prayed he'd be all right.It turned out that nothing Van said was true. He wasn't dumb. He was athletic but wasn't a jock. He loved his girlfriend, who from Bobby's description was no air head. And he wouldn't be.