Even after I was such a jerk to you, still let me stay here. Thank you so much." "It"s OK Rachel, we shouldn't"t dwell on the past. What matters now i... that you"re safe." After a bit of catching up she asked to use the shower. "while you"re in there I"ll start dinner." While I was cooking I couldn't"t help but think of my sister"s body. I imagined her naked and wet in the shower. I had an intense urge to try and sneak a quick look. I quietly stepped towards the bathroom door. Listened for a. She would be fun to watch, but I had a feeling, with her it was all for Liz, nothing for anyone else.As we walked up the stairs to Liz's apartment, I was thinking, what would happen?After knocking on the door and hearing someone call to come in, I knocked again. After a few minutes, the door opened and Liz stood there, looking like she thought she was the queen of the universe. She must have spent all day at the tanning salon and the beauty shop. She did look good, but behind the eyes there was. I quickly put on a pink velour tracksuit and a pair of fur lined kneehigh pink snow boots. Putting my hair into a scrunchie I looked in themirror at my boyish face for the last time in anticipation of what wasto come.After we arrived at the hospital 30 min later Jim walked me to my roomand he gave me a last lingering kiss.He said, "Thank you for doing this I will love you forever and alwaysmake sure you are the happiest woman on earth."As he walked away I felt love for someone like I never had. Tell her that it is for her own good, that theprocess must be natural, that her breasts must burgeon naturallyfirst before she can have implants. That to achieve perfection shemust be patient .... just hormones ...."Grace de Messembry was smiling. In agreement?".... I know she is already mentally fragile, but if her desire isso fiercely all consuming, then perhaps the risk of mood swings isa chance worth taking. Better mood swings whilst she rejoices ather progress, whilst she has the security.