I replayed the events over and over in my head like a detective novel. Thinking to myself, How did I not realize Kate used cocaine? What should I hav... done differently to save my first girlfriend who was my first lover? Would I break every woman that I touch? I thought to myself that if I start telling people that I am gay or bisexual that I would never have to relive or deal with this issue again of a lover passing away. After thirteen years of trying to convince myself of being something. ." I whisper softly. But I get no answer. I take a step into the room and notice that he's asleep. Perfect.I close the door slowly and walk back into my room, ripping my clothes off on the way. When I reach my room Jessica lays naked on my bed, the dildo in her pussy already. I close the door behind me as my panties hit the floor."I hope you don't mind but I started already. I just get so horny thinking about you..." She moans the last words.I smile and walk back over to the bed. Jessica pulls. His eyes were on the bright green eyes and flaming red hair of the tiny woman in front of him. She was even lovelier up close. His angle above her gave him a nice glimpse at the light yellow bra as the top of her blouse sagged open. The long skirt was a shame though. He would have made a bet with anyone for any amount that she had fantastic legs. She was the type. Jana was taken a little aback by the size of the man. His hand engulfed hers in a modest grip that hid hers completely. ‘Okay Tom,. As hard as it had ever been before."I'm sorry," she told me. "It's not that I'm not enjoying what we're doing. In fact, that's the problem. I'm enjoying it a little too much." It's okay, Amy," I reassured her. "Really, it's okay."I left fifteen minutes later. My cock throbbed painfully the entire way home.Things remained status quo between us for the next six weeks. We continued our routine of dating on the weekends and occasionally seeing each other on school nights. We went to plays, movies,.