If only everyone saw me as the blur, I see now instead of that ugly duckling I thought as I stood there. I put my glasses back on and slipped my night...hirt on and climbed into bed. I placed my glasses onto the nightstand beside the bed just to keep them handy. If I did not and if I got up, I would most likely fall down the steps for I could not find the steps without my glasses. I closed my eyes with hopes of dreaming about someone seeing me for me and not Miss four eyes the ugly duckling.I had. "Just be careful. Don't hurt yourself, there's plenty of time to improve your technique."Turning away from her to face Merry, I said, "I meant to answer your question, Merry. Anyway, kegels are... well, I read about this in Penthouse. You sit on the toilet, spread your legs apart and see if you can stop and start the flow of your pee without moving your legs. What you're doing is controlling a certain muscle, don't ask me which one. Anyway, you hold it for say a count of three and after a while. And if it turns out that he is my brother, I still won’t be happy. Does that make sense?”“It makes plenty of sense,” Wendy said and squeezed my shoulder with her hand.After school, I was nervous as I drove over to Jack’s house. He had text me to see if I could go over since Debbie was going to be at work for the next three days. I knew we’d be alone so that scared me but it also excited me. I wasn’t sure if Jack wanted to see me to tell me that he regretted what we did at the park. I feared. I also watched the scenery from time to time, capturing much of it on my digital camera. I took many of the pictures from an angle that included a view of my driver. We headed out of the city now. The buildings were sparser with more decay evident. Small plots of farmland appeared along the roadside, many being plowed with livestock. From time to time, we shared the road with a tractor pulling a wagon and with many motorcycles. Cars were in the minority here and most of those were relics from.