This will be my first time and we should really think what this could lead to.” I didn’t think she could get John to fuck her. I didn’t think sh... would back out. I thought John wouldn’t want to fuck her in front of me. John was still naked and put his hand down her sweater to feel her young breasts. Victoria said, “John I want you to finger fuck me and suck my boobs.”Ryan and I stayed in the bedroom. He is a virgin and I have to show him what to do. I said, “Ryan I want you to lick my vagina.”. There is a lot to tell you even if its only been four weeks since I last sent a letter to you. Things out here got a bit exciting in the past week. I'm trying to think of where to begin.I guess the first thing was that they expanded the training class Erica and I have been taking. Someone higher up suggested that they announce that they would allow anyone to enter the class even if they planned to stay on Earth and defend it. We got an influx of adult men and women. Most had CAP scores in the. " I was reduced to simplybegging this Iraqi asshole but he controlled our destiny and was nowalmost a god to me.Ramon just chuckled. He knew that he could break me. I was find out thathe really could just use the various technical elements that he'dembedded in my brain stem and with his advanced mind manipulationtechniques to alter me and to make me do whatever I was told to do. Butthis was more fun to him. To break someone down emotionally and to get them to voluntarily dothings they would. My boobies looked so good and my nippleswere so erotically sensitive that they begged me tosnack on them, sucking and biting while I squirmed inecstasy.This wasn’t what I intended at all. I intended to hurtmyself not pleasure myself. I realize now that I wasstill afraid and was just putting off the inevitablepain that I would feel. If that’s how my body reacted tothoughts of torture my plan might work after all.I had to do it. No putting it off any more. I moved alow stool right up.