I went to gay clubs (not because I wanted to have sex with men, butbecause I believed it was a place I would find acceptance and be safedressed as I w...s) in full makeup, wigs and womens' clothes. It was nervewracking and again, the shame. Sometimes attempting to dress passably,sometimes more androgynously without a wig.Occasionally a gay man would proposition me. I would occasionally dancewith them because there was something excitingly humiliating about beingseen by others dancing with a guy. At least some anyway... come on, we need your help... for the team. How bout it?"Headlights of cars in the long line began to pop on giving the entire scene an eerie glow. Clothes were being strung out in two long multi-colored rows down the middle of the pasture."What the fuck," said Kat. In a single motion, she pulled her shirt over her head and handed it to the teammate. Kat's bra didn't keep her firm nipples from protruding noticeably."Oh... oh my... no, Kat... no... oh, my god, you're. "Mother with a sly grin toying with her left ear: "You can my dear; youjust don't know it yet! Practice makes perfect. I must make a quick tripto the castle." She went into the living room and we saw a pinkish glowthat changed to blue with a whirlwind sound.I tried refilling my cup by thinking about it filling while pointing myfinger at it and moving it up the cup and to my surprise it filled!Annie proudly: "Aren't we gettin' to be the smart one?"Tracey: "Misty I can't do it. What do you mean. I said to him “please whatever happened in library is between us, don’t let others know”. He said “what shall I get if I do so” well I did have an idea about that and in fear of getting insulted I said “keep me”. His face glowed with my answer. He got what he wanted. He said “okay then it’s a deal”. For a time I was shocked by what I just said but felt relief as I m not going to get insulted at least.Well it was 9:53 now so I went to my bio lab to do some work and left for basket-ball court. I.