I did love losing myself to the music; and being brazenly in the public gaze with an older man. I had discovered the joys of exhibitionism; and Margo ...ad recognise that.The cruise had got away to an exciting start; I felt my life was expanding.The Norwegian Fiords were awesome. For Margo and I especially, this was a real taste of an exotic land. We had stood out on deck, arm in arm, as the S S Coronia slid us silently past majestic mountains. Small sunlit villages appeared beside glacial. My rejection came close to sending her into a tantrum - something I had been trying to avoid, but she held herself in check, dejectedly hung her head, and headed for the door."Penny!" I said, as she pushed open the screen, "There is a thing called experience that adults have and young people, no matter how smart they are, are only in the process of gaining. The role of the the adult is to use his or her experience to guide the young people so that their experiences don't hurt them too badly,. "Love me? You don't even know me. You have no idea who I am!" I know you. I know your father is a cruel bastard and he used you as a punching bag. I know that you've had nothing but pain all your life. But it doesn't have to be that way. If you just let someone see the real you, you would see that you can be loved."Fear sparked in my brain. "Sara didn't tell you that. I didn't tell anyone about my dad. How do you know about him?" I've known you for a long time. I've watched you and I've seen. When i was walking out of the exam i was stopped at the door by the invidulator who'd stunned me earlier, her eyes scanning my body. 'I couldn't help noticing you looking at me earlier' she was actually spealing to me but i didn't know why that excited me. 'What do you mean looking at you? I'm sorry if i did and it upset you at all.' I choked out not knowing if what i'd just said actually made sense. 'Something in your eyes is telling me that you wanna come out with me some time, but don't.