I got up off the floor and tried my best to speak. After what felt like an eternity, I finally said to the two, "I need a minute. Please excuse me." A...rather formal thing to say, but at this point, I didn't know either of them the way I thought I did. I went to my room, and I fell onto my bed, sobbing because of the decision I would have to make sooner or later. They wouldn't let me string them both along without giving me an ultimatum. The last thing I wanted to hear them say is, "It's either. Mai lambi safar karne ke karan bahut thak gaya tha. so mai thoda aram karna chahta tha. maine bhabhi se kaha mai aram karna chahta hu. tab bhabhi boli pehle ja kar naha lo to achii nind ayegi. mai kaha thik hai. aur mai towel le kar bathroom ki oor gaya par bathroom me koi gaya hua tha. to bhabhi ne kaha tm meri bathroom me chale jau. maine kaha thik hai. mai bhabhi ke bathroom me ja kar nahane laga. jab mai naha raha tha tab maineBhabhi ki bra aur panty dekhi. bhabhi ki panty to itni patli aur. Sometimes the phone is the only way to find her!"OK. The list is complete," she said, " I want to find some tapioca, and then visit toiletries. I'll go down this aisle, but I thought I saw some over there. You look."Over there was a sales item island in the main passageway. The main theme was cake mixes, but there were frosting and cupcake papers, and a hundred other associated items. When I gave up on the search, she was gone.Over the next hour, I visited the pudding section, and the toiletry. I have read so many fat-positive blogsthat I know it would inspire more confidence in myself. Big is beautiful!I haven't really thought of men sexually before, but lately I have beganto fantasize about being a BBW with a man. I don't like men culturally,but I think I would enjoy having a man see me and treat me like a woman.Honestly, I have many more fantasies about being a lesbian, which is how Ireally view sexual myself (even though my body is male, my soul isfemale).Yes, I probably have.