I would be happy with just you for the rest of my life. Love me, take care of our kids, and I won’t give two shits who else you fuck.”“You are s...nding me seriously mixed signals, Elyse!” I said.“So I’m complicated. So are you. So is everyone. Well, that’s not quite true. Kara is simple.”“Simple? What do you mean?”“Love her and she’ll stay with you for the rest of her life. No commitments required. Whatever you ask of her, she’ll do.”“Assuming for the moment that what you say is true, is that. "Can I take them off of you?" she asked. "I don't know, can you?"She started pulling them down but then she ran a finger through my slit before she took them the rest of the way off.I stepped out of them and watched her put them to her face. "You know," she said, "You've made love to me and you've watched me masturbate, but I've never made love to you. I couldn't do it before when I was still Edith, but I can now." I was hoping you would," I said.We finished undressing in the bedroom and I got. I have been in the past badly blocked, especially regarding sex. With you, the main reason was that you were sexually so much more experienced and alive than I. Your so open sexiness both scared and attracted me. And now, as a widow and single like you, I dare to give way to this attraction. I feel ready to embrace sex. Paradoxically, I feel young and, therefore, more like you than I have ever felt before.I have already actively done something about getting sexually unblocked. You, Mari, I. I thought that might take the edge off and allow me to relax, but if anything it merely primed the engine. After that Matt and I dug out a couple of boxes of old porn and set up an old TV to start playing it. Paul told us he likes it to be the background noise for the weekend, and as he finished setting up the cabin, Evan joined Matt and I in the living area as we passively watched an old scene where two jocks teamed up on a twink in a locker room. We sat next to each other on a couch playing.