She quickly turned back around and said, “No! No, don’t take it like that. I mean GOD, I just never seen one that big before! Holy mother of...I m...an when...how...”“Really?”“Yeah, you grew. I mean it grows. It ain't that big normal right?”“I guess.” I felt weird. Like I was one of them fellers that hides in them tents at the carnival and people pay a quarter to come in side. "That's right ladies and gentleman. See God's revenge on women! The Russian's don't have missles like this ladies! Men. "My you've got a big one there," she giggled and turned away, "be careful and don't let mummy see that or you may be late home."The pick up went without a hitch but hearing her words and remembering the sights of the other night made me wonder if I may get lucky one of these days."Hello Degenerate," said Jennifer from my doorway, it was a couple of quiet days later and I was relaxing in my own flat."I'm not sure you should be here miss," I said getting up from my chair."Why not, this is my. That was the first time I’d spoken to Faye. Vanessa came out of the dressing room and put her arm across my shoulders. I shrugged her off. “Look here,” she said, turning to me to face her. “This, for them and for me, is not a game. If we lack discipline we lack professionalism and if we lack that people won't pay to come and see them and critics will say they are incompetent as well as us. They love this. They need to be told, to be shouted at and to learn to fucking well get it right. So do. But I was too upset to care.It was about 2 a.m. when I felt the cool breeze against my bare legs, half asleep I reached for my blanket, and bumped something firm and hairy. I grabbed it with my hand to feel what it was, but before I could turn around to see who it was, they shoved my head into the pillow. Now wide awake I started to freak out, thinking it was my husband trying to kill me finally. But my face was to the side so I was able to breath, as I struggled I tried to see who it was, but.