Doctor Michaels should see her right away and get heron the hormones. I also told her to go ahead and go to school as Jill.It's the best way really. I... people don't know they can't hurt you. Ifthey do know they can't hurt you. But if they suspect, then you can andwill be crucified. It's the only way for her to get past the pain otherpeople might cause her. It's now, openly, or later with a lot of pain."What Megan said made sense to mom, and as she looked at me, she sawagreement on my face as. I had a long weekend at the start of February so, Nicola and I celebrated Valentine’s Day a week early, which was not so bad as we did not have trouble booking a table. Visits to Cambridge were always fun and I was happy that I was getting to know Nicola’s friends there too. A few of them got under my skin a little and I would feel her squeezing my arm when I tensed up about something they said or did.Finally, her first year was finished. We packed the car and headed to Portsmouth and boarded. "I need to just set things right with themsomehow, I can't leave things the way they were..." Is that why you haven't started HRT yet?" Anna-Jade asked."Partly," Jessica sighed. "It- gah, I dunno." Sleep on it," Anna-Jade advised. "You've had a long day, get some sleep.Or some sex, whatever works for you!" Hehe," Jessica giggled as she returned to her bedroom, stripping off herclothes and diving under her bed sheets with Paige. As intense as thelovemaking session was, however, it only served to. It would have been so much different if it had been Kasey, she knew, and deep inside she was relieved he hadn't gone to the party, though she kept telling herself she wished he had. Because if it had been Kasey instead, she wouldn't have been in charge, and maybe that was what she wanted. She just wanted to take him, like he was the girl and she was the guy. It had been wonderful though, physically, and the fact that it wasn't Ryan added a whole new dimension. A whole new world opened up to.