When Carol would swing at you could hear you could hear the leather strips whistle.She stood over me laying On the bed. "I always knew five good hits ...nd I think you've earned five more with the way he behaved. You have acted tonight like such a slut. Some of the boys at :Pewter House (the club they had been at) were asking me about you, who you were when you were single and if they could buy you a drink, I had to tell them not tonight but you would be back maybe next weekend and they could buy. "My plan to get a little control over Doctor Chang. We need to understand what is happening, and she is our best resource to do that. But, I don't know her, and I don't trust her, so I need leverage. Would you see if you can find her?"She gave me a look, but went out of the room anyway. Ten minutes later she, returned with the doctor in tow."You were looking for me, Mr. Grey." Yes, I was. After our conversation last night, I did some thinking. There is more going on than you know from your. I hope you think so too.’ I added anxiously. ‘I’d like that darling. And although I agree that it’s best to discuss some things less emotionally, if you are starting to feel the way I do I think we ought to make tonight a bit of a personal celebration.’ Looking back it’s interesting to see how we were both still gingerly skirting around the ‘love’ word at that time. Each of us knew how deeply we were feeling about the other, both probably suspected those feelings were shared, yet the practical. So one day, I kind of imagined being the girl in the video, and boom, instant hard on. And I was already pretty girly, so It was easy to imagine. It was just really really hot to me. It got to the point though where I was like, DESPERATE to try sex for real. I had a really good friend back then, named Drake, who used to spend like all his time at my house, and I talked him into taking a shower with me. And one thing led to another. We kept rubbing into eachother, and it seemed to get us both.