See you soon.’ I hopped into the shower right after he hung up, as embarrassed as I am to say it, yes, the smell of Matthew’s sex was still on me...when I’d decided to go on a date with someone else that very same night. Naughty Kara. Not to be defensive—ok, I guess I am being defensive, or I wouldn’t have used that disclaimer—but I justified my actions as being totally non-slutty. I mean, even if I did sleep with Steve, he would be just one of a few, not many, as Matthew was one of my first,. I somehow avoided the page but she asked me is there a way to stop such advertisements. I said just avoid by your eyes. She laughed and said I’m married and I don’t have a problem with seeing such things. Guys I know about it she was visiting some porn sites I accidentally saw some of those on history. I told her about it and she was amazed and she said don’t tell anyone. I asked her whether she saw it alone or with uncle. She said she is afraid to see it with uncle he is against all this and. ”“Actually, I called to chat with you,” I told her. “We don’t get to talk much, and I miss you.”“You’re a sweetheart,” she said, her voice choking up.I’ve realized that our breakup has been harder on her than on anyone other than me.“How are you doing?” she asked. “I could hear some of what you and Beth were talking about the other night. You laid her out in lavender, from the yelling I heard through your end of the phone.” She lowered her voice some and added, “It’s about time.”I chuckled at. I told her to look around the bar we were in and choose the man that she found most appealing. I wanted her to be the aggressor and offer sex to the man. She said that she didnt think she could actually fuck another man for fear of pregnancy, so she asked if watching her give a blow job would satisfy my urge to see her with another man. I agreed and she turned to the man sitting on the stool next to her and asked him if he would like to dance. They moved to the dance floor and began dancing. I.