I was a perpetually horny 20 yr old,, but the whole situation had my “little voice saying “Get the F**k out of here” which I did. The guys at th... shop asked if I did *it* and I said NO. I got the impression that some of them did try out the furniture, but I did not ask. The next week, I was sent to do a setup in a part of town which had mansions. It was the high end TV, had a stereo, record changer, remote control (that was a biggie back then), and the largest cabinet (read--- heavy). I was. I snorted for breath, kissing Keira, and exploded, semen erupting in a wave of bliss, one wave after another, each bringing utter pleasure. I drowned in an intense climax, kissing a beautiful girl, the most beautiful girl, kissing Keira.I woke up to wet boxers; I'd cum in my sleep.I woke up with an erection; I was still horny.I woke up to a rude reality; I wanted an underage girl ... desperately, passionately wanted her.Over coffee at breakfast I struggled with myself. For three consecutive. Jim claimed his wife gave a complete stranger a blow job one night. Then there is Tim, who shares his girlfriend with others. He talks all the time about how they love to swing and the gratification it is to watch her get fucked.I felt jealous every time he shared one of his adventures, and I'd love for my wife to do the same. I know it won’t ever happen and now I only live through others. Ann wanted this night to be special. She had me undress and wait for her on the bed while she went into. There is nothing at all hidden about Viktor and Alia’s affair. Alia comes and goes as she pleases. She seems happier than I’ve ever seen her. She is very much in love. She explains nothing, I accept everything. I pass through the apartment, hot and erect, like a ghost that cannot touch. I wonder how I am being poisoned, by food or injection. I hardly eat and there are no suspicious marks that I can see on my body, which I explore frequently and with great care, touching myself without.