“You do know,” she said. “This is loaded with a fixed amount each month. You can’t exceed it. It’s not a credit card. OK?”I just nodded. T...ere wasn’t any point in arguing. At least now I don’t have to eat in the office canteen every day. That was getting a bit dull and I’ve just realised how I’ve missed having that break at lunch time when I can get out from under Lucy’s watchful eye, although she’s been off for a bit.Tuesday November 16thI’ve been worrying for a while that this might. Jane did say he was bigger than I was, and that he did have tricks I did not have, but she would not share them with me. I should have asked dad about them before he died.There was a one-time incident with Bart and his wife during that six-year span. Jane called and said Bart and Russ were going deer hunting for a week and Susan (Bart’s wife) wanted to stay with her. A couple of days later Jane called and said that Susan had just learned that Bart had been cheating on her (not with Jane, and. ‘We shouldn’t talk about this, Carmen.’ Hearing him say my first name was even sexier at school. ‘I’m sorry. I don’t know why I asked.’ I rubbed the back of my neck, squeezing the skin tight. ‘I wouldn’t say anything I didn’t mean, not to you.’ I felt like I couldn’t breathe. He just stared at me, caressing the top of my hand with his thumb. Just like at the carnival and when he dropped me off, I wanted to kiss him. Being there alone with him with his hand on mine, and his eyes bright as he. I looked at the two girls who had become my best friends in less than a week. "Here's to best friends, and the night of our lives!" Oh yeah!"We headed over to where the guys were standing, talking about who knows what.We each grabbed our guy, and we were off the party.Kyle looked kind of nervous, so I slipped my hand in his. He gave it a squeeze, and I squeeze back.We rang the bell, and Brad answered. He had a drink in his hand, but you could tell he wasn't totally wasted yet."Hey! The.