I’m barely 23, so what do I know about raising an older child?”“Don’t worry about that, Honey. I know that you can handle it. What do you thin... about adopting a girl so that you can have the fun you missed with boyfriends and going on dates and buying fancy clothes and all of that stuff?”“Yeah, I guess that would be fun, but what about you? You need a son so that you can do all of those things that fathers and sons do, like hunting and fishing and watching your son chase girls.”I had to laugh. .. all alone!I waited till he was in the garden and stepped out,quite decent with a blue sarong wrapped around me and my white ciggy holder and sunglasses along with the heels they were my only accessories, bar the lashings of pink shimmer lipgloss, does that count, I digress.As Rodger appeared from behind the low fence, he was weeding in khaki shorts and vest"He..Hello Nikki he stammered, I smiled and replied "Hi Rodge how are you are you cooking for yourself? I asked. Silence he was struck. I think he's determined to climb it, because he thinks you're worth the effort. You've got to give him some credit for that, right?" So you're saying that I should forget about you and spend my time with Jerry?" her convoluted reasoning deduced."I don't know about forgetting your old Grandpa, because he loves you more than he can say. But yeah, I guess in a way, I am suggesting that you spend more time with Jerry. And like I've said, listen to your heart, because it's usually right. Just. When I got home, I tried to hide my face from mom as I walked around the front desk. As I got to the staircase, I heard mom's voice."Kristin, come with me."We walked into the boxing room and sat on the ring apron. That's when I broke down and cried."Mom, I'm so confused. I think I lost him today. A guy tried to ask me out and I would have said yes if Matt hadn't gotten there when he did. Instead, I just said I wasn't available Friday night. I hurt Matt, something I never wanted to do and he.