That's not what I want or what I'm looking for in my first lover. I want a man who I care for, and who cares about me – I thought maybe an older man......She regripped my hands looking into my eyes again, I felt something very deep, and it wasn't the expectation of sex, it was more – a benevolence, a warmth that washed across my heart."Number 355!" I'll get it," we both said at the same time, getting up together and getting the food. We brought it back and started to eat."Jamison, I don't know if. .... I think you got too much sun, you needed a drink, I gave you one, you asked to lay down and as my couch is at the menders because it needs to be recovered, you came up here, your clothes were manky so you undressed in the kitchen and I put them in the wash for you"I turned back to stare at the wall and as I did I asked "What are you taking about extra money?" I offered you more money for extras but the money was for you and not your school" Mr Byrne said."How much extra?" €100" €100, Ok. "You only did what you were forced to do by that animal who calls himself a man. You are my wife, just as you always were." But ... I ... I fucked them. They made me do things ... Oh, God, Bill," she sobbed. "How can you ever forgive me?" Hush," he said, his voice shaky. "There is nothing to forgive, Baby. Nothing. You haven't done anything wrong."Kathy buried her face next to Jill's as they lay side-by-side, and talked quietly in her ear. "Hush. We know. We know," Kathy repeated. "Don't cry.. .I dont know what to say, John. I love you too but wasnt expecting you to say or do this. I looked away from him and got up. I paced back and forth in front of him, knowing that hes watching my every move. Okay, okay. Lets meet tonight for something to eat and discuss it then cuz Im still in shock, John, I stressed. We said our goodbyes as he made reservations at Iris down Thistle Lane and decided we should meet there at 8pm. This gave me four hours to get my act together. I drove home and.