She went out of my life so abruptly back then, after changing it so significantly. My coffee was now cold and my paper unread but she was all that was...on my mind. I had almost forgotten about the envelope when I sat down at my table. I slowly opened it wondering what was inside and a whole new wave of emotions engulfed me. The flat card with a strip on it had a post it note with the words "room 111" written on it. I finally realized, I didn't want her to change her mind either. I was at the. I guess I'd expected to hide out fromAmerican society until I could re-enter it as a man again, but there'sreally nothing wrong with being here as a woman. I guess it's fun. Hey,half the population manages it, why can't I?Feb. 23, 2001Carrie got me to come to a friend's party tonight. I didn't want to stayhome without her, and she really wanted me to come. It was actually areally good party, mellow and not noisy, and with neat people. She's gotgood taste in friends. Some of the guys there. My eyes were on sister-in-law only. Sister-in-law looked very sexy. His breasts were clearly visible in the butterflies.After having dinner, Bhaiya was going out of office work somewhere. Glad to hear this. And you said don't worry, I will remain the same.And after some time the brother left. Now around 11 o'clock, sister-in-law had gone to her room and I was in Somya's room.Sister-in-law slept only in tights and bras. Sister-in-law locked the gate inside. But Somya had the second key.Around. I looked inthe mirror again and saw a different person yet again. Now I was a boyin a skirt wearing bad makeup. Glum, and angry, I sat on the bed with noway to vent any more. I had struck out as hard as I could, but I wasn'tsure that I won anything. Almost half an hour later, mom knocked on mydoor, then came in."That was some display," she said, "you shocked your father you know.Now he doesn't know what to do." Good," I said, "maybe he'll get off my back." Oh, he got the message alright, the.