Some part of me feels guilty about it every time I walk up to her- that she might be able to see those thoughts written out across my face as plain as...day. Or was she just being nice to me? Would that be so bad, for someone to just want to be nice to me for once? Thinking that always made me feel all the more guilty though for dreaming about touching her the way that I do. Carrie was so sweet, so pretty.. What was I supposed to do? I couldn’t ask her why she did what she did. I could barely. Of course atthe time it had been proposed none of the parties thought that it would evercome about. All agreed that surely Jerry would refuse, as any man would, butonce the documents had been signed the deal was sealed.His feminization began that very afternoon. Subliminal psychodrama wasstarted which bombarded his brain implanting thoughts that would eventuallybrainwash him into thinking that he had always been a female. And not justany female. He would remember only that he was a bimbo headed. For a moment, just before night fell Ilooked round in the twilight and saw Brian on top of Aunt Edwina, Neal ontop of Mum, Victor on top of Aunt Charlotte and Paul on top of Philippa.I was worried what would happen if this went much further and Brian andhis son Steve discovered that Dad and I weren't "natural women" butwhilst I was not able to see what was going on between Aunt Edwina andBrian or indeed any of the other members of our family and Brian's familyI could tell from the heavy. Which is a hard thing to do when you’re father is screaming what a disgrace his daughter is without the whole town hearing. I’m still on edge with that day, hence why it’s more bothersome than it would’ve been given any other situation, considering he’s acting like a child who just learned how to walk. With my parents, my sister and I never opened up to them. They were just those sort of people that expected you to do what they said, to take the insults from them without commenting back, to.