I didn't become atranny to wear trousers. I've been starving myself for years so that mylegs look thin and attractive. I'd be stupid not to wear my fa...ouritelittle dress tomorrow, however short it is. I need to look as feminineas possible, even if this means I have to wear too much make-up!The next morning I woke up nervous but excited. I always looked forwardto dressing as Belle but I was more than a little nervous about the ideaof Liz's company that evening. I went to the supermarket to buy. Lost all the faith in friends no matter who they were. I had a complete nervous breakdown, checked by doctor. People who knew were very much shocked on seeing me. For them I was complete opposite to energetic, humorous, funny, joking etc. I was totally broken n so was my faith in friends and heart to love anyone else if at all I would have any girl in my life.During this time there was another girl whose name was same as that of my ex-girlfriend. Her name was Tina. She was a friend of my. It will be at my home where I have a playroom”Lisa said .Paige will take only a couple at a time there while we entertain the rest.We have a pool table and a bar where the guys can have fun while they wait their turn. Sounds interesting “I said just as a knock on the door caused Paige to get up and answer . A few minutes later she came back “I am going for a ride and will be back in a while”she said . “Do you mind keeping Lisa company while I am gone”she asked me, then gave me a kiss “thank. I didn’t even know she was attracted to me. “But it was hot,” I add, looking over to her. She smiles but it doesn’t touch her eyes, which is a little odd for her. “Yeah it was." And she sounds genuine despite her expression. “Thank you,” she says and leans over to kiss me again. It’s short but sweet, and in this moment it occurs to me she’s probably thinking of Erica. I feel sympathetic. The way she described them wasn’t overly exclusive when Erica fell in love with someone else. Although, if.