As I tried to move on with my life I realized I could not focus on the real world anymore. What had been there for me was not there anymore. After the...accident, I had somehow lost my ability to socialize. I couldn’t talk to people. I couldn’t be around people. And I thought I had escaped the accident whole. How arrogant of me. I thought about suicide, but realized I couldn’t do that to myself. No matter how depressed I was, I was too afraid of God. So one day I came across an ad in a magazine. This lead to me looking for new and exciting catergories to shake things up a bit, and this is where I first watched gay porn. I had always considered myself straight until I watched a guy getting a blowjob off of another guy and to my complete surprise I found myself starting to get hard. So for the past few months I had been thinking about what it would like to be with a man. I love my girlfriend but I couldn't get the image of the guy swallowing another guys load out of my head. I thought. The Phantom had ridden off about two hours ago and would be gone at leastfour days. The storm was expected to last for five or six days so he would beconstantly soaked. Having ridden across the jungle under similarcircumstances, Diana knew that her mate was probably more uncomfortable thanshe was. At least she was dry.Looking at the falling rain through the cave entrance, she shivered. Theheavy limbs on the nearby trees swayed back and forth as the heavy rain beatupon them. The breeze carried. I felt sorry for her wasted time, resources and energy but I could not take back what I had said for I loved Jane so dearly. Finally she cried loudly in front of me, which was what I had expected to see. To me her cry was actually a kind of release. The idea of divorce which had obsessed me for several weeks seemed to be firmer and clearer now.The next day, I came back home very late and found her writing something at the table. I didn't have supper but went straight to sleep and fell asleep.