Isn't what I was." So if you're okay with what is, why all the problems?" It's like... you've got a shelf full of knickknacks and you've got themarran...ed one way. Then someone comes in and rearranges them into somethingbetter. You like the new arrangement, but the fact that it's different andyou never saw it being changed makes it feel weird." So why the problems now?" That IS because Janey isn't here. When I'm with Janey, I feel likeeverything's how it's supposed to be. And when we're in bed. Very well. Ged drove home. Cassie was asleep.The next morning at breakfast, Cassie spoke. "Good gig?" Yeah, once I'd played through the list it was fine. Funny bunch of misfits though. Josh was the only sane one there. Oh, Peter was ok, but the other two – weird!"Cassie looked up, there was a look of surprise on her face."Not Furtive Glance?" she asked."Yes," he said, surprised. "You remember, Joshua came to our housewarming?"Cassie now felt real fear, though she did not know why. She had. I wanted to let you know that I have observed you a few timesgetting dressed into your special outfits, and I wanted to get to knowthe girl behind those clothes. You really seemed to enjoy dressing inyour very feminine clothes and walking around your apartment. So the CDI made for you had some subliminal messages embedded in it, with somevery special instructions for you. From now on, any time you hear mecall you by your feminine name that is who you will become. When I sayyour male name you. As a bit of insurance, they took along several small collapsed hydrogen balloons so that they could add extra lift if it became necessary. These small balloons were to be inserted between the existing large main balloons as needed. At initial takeoff, they did not need the extra lift because the freight gondola was nearly empty.The separate passenger gondola was fastened to the nose of Soft Touch, and Kitty Hawk was hung from that. Joy was enthusiastic about flying, so Doug was anxious to take.