And I was fully fem. I had never been caught since then and I don't think anyone else has seen me in my feminine form. And this was many years before ... discovered the joy and purpose of erections, masterbation, and sex in general. I was literally a woman before being a man in my eyes. Still this moment defined my sexual awakening and awareness about sex, sexuality, and fetishes. Many fetishes to come. Women's clothes always caught my eye. Glimpses of my mom and sister as they were getting. Carla was sipping a Pepsi and her mom was slugging down a cold BUD. I noticed that her mom had her legs slightly apart and was wearing some kind of really short skirt. I could see her while panties between her legs and could make out the slight outline of her pussy lips and since the material was really thin, I could actually see (at least I thought I could) the outline of her pussy. Now, keep in mind that I was about 16 and I think and Carla was still 15. Her mom was around 38 to 40 years old. "Momma wouldn't have disapproved, you know?" he said.She nodded, but what he said had no bearing on what she was about to do."Did you really want me when I was 10?" she wondered.As he drove, he glanced over at her; looking sheepish as he nodded. "Yeah, I ... I never -- When you were 10 I wanted you to grow into womanhood retaining your virginity; yet I really had a ... a strange ... I really wanted you. Then, I guess it was because of this conflict of wanting you to stay a virgin with my. It wasn't good for me, though. I was just a cum-dump for my rapist. But believe me, with the rings constantly drawing my attention to my nipples and my clit, sex was on my mind a lot.Mark and Brad were disappointed of course. Sean told them we would have to skip the race for two weeks. But he promised to make it up to them.My rapist dropped by after ten days. He dropped off the two DVDs and checked on my piercings. Since he was there he went ahead and bent me over the arm of a chair, lubed me.