We had each other's various contact means, and I knew I'd continue to try to be part of Renee's life even though she was far away. The rest of the day...I felt like a chunk of my heart was missing as I thought of all the fun things we'd done and how easy it was to be with her.She texted me before her flight, when she landed, and at least three times a day for the few weeks before classes began. The texts and sexts continued but were a little less frequent after school started.Amber would come to. ’ I could tell he was hurt and I felt horrible. ‘I’m sorry, Ethan.’ ‘Don’t worry about it. Take care, Carmen,’ he said, walking to the door before leaving. As my ice cream continued to melt, I started to wonder where I would be if I didn’t break up with Ethan. Ethan was such a nice guy and I left him for Jonathan. I questioned my judgment and wondered if what I was doing with Darrel would end the same way. I stood there wondering if I didn’t start dating Jonathan, would I have the same. Suzy had been the rock she had used for support through some very difficult times, her friend had never let her down, prepared to drop everything at a moment’s notice just to be there for moral support whenever Hayley felt the world was closing in on her. Suzy’s opinion mattered to her, Suzy saw the world as it was, she never sugar coated anything, Hayley trusted her completely.The more she thought about Suzy’s reaction, the more she realised she was simply looking for reasons to carry on with. ’ Katie swallowed, perfectly aware of what he wanted to hear, but the words stuck in her throat. His blue eyes bored into her, stripping away her defenses without a word, and she felt the tears sting her eyes as she forced herself to not look away. ‘I love you,’ she finally said, staring directly into his eyes so he could see the truth. It wasn’t until he exhaled that she realized he’d been holding his breath. His uncertainty sent guilt and pain slicing through her and she brought her hands up.