.she had to get to the black escalade to see him again. See him again? she thought...that's funny, she didn't even really see him the first time. If...he were to walk by her right now, she likely wouldn't recognize him at all. She wasn't sure he'd really be waiting in the parking lot for her either, but she hoped! She took a deep breath as she walked through the exit door and saw the black escalade. She grinned like a school girl as she walked to the rear passenger door, opened it and. And I always found my hips the best feature.That was when boys from my school began to notice me, and were always trying to talk to me. In the halls, I couldn’t walk a few feet without getting slapped on the butt from older classmates. I really wished I had had an older sister, so they could hit on her instead. But some even tried getting me to go out with them. I’d say no, and most were understanding. But a lot were really angry, and called me a stuck up bitch. I hated it, and thought all guys. It is now time to say good-bye. Icannot be me again. I cannot live as me. I am a freak. I am a sinner. Iam so unhappy. If I kill myself, I will be at peace. I will not be afraidto be me. I know that suicide is a sin, but I need peace. Mom, You and Dad love me. But would you really love me if you know who Iam. What I did? What I am inside? The truth is that I am a sissy. I feellike I am a girl inside a boy's body. I feel like that this girl ispunching the boy's body, and wants to come out.If the. She was rushed to the nearest hospitalwhere doctors and nurses held back tears as they worked to keep her alive.Andy and their mother waited for hours until a doctor finally came out totalk to them.&&&&&I woke up in great pain and then remembered and tried to cry out but therewas no sound. It hurt but I couldn't scream. Then it was like I was in acloud and all the pain went away. My brother Andy was there crying and Itried to hug him and tell him I was ok, but he got scared and ran.