I could feel my resolve weakening again.I desperately tried to hold on to the last bit of control I had. I could not feel anything else except for her...melting eyes; hear nothing but her racing heart and smell nothing but her cheap perfume, hair shampoo and the sweat on her forehead.I could feel the hot air gushing out of her nostrils and brushing my legs under the laced thigh-high. I smiled and said. “Go on, love!”It was poetic – she caressed my leg from my knees to my angle and gently held my. He looks at me a little concerned, but kisses me goodbyeand lets me go. Next thing I know I am on a puddle jumper to get to a real airport then overthe ocean. A 12 hour flight. Sigh, I guess I know what I'll be doing. I occupymy time writing to him, for him. He has given me more information than I needto find him. How could he ever have thought I would do this. I hope I'm notbeing too scary. I just want to see him and maybe, only if I can get him alonefor a moment I will say hello and steal a. It'll be cool."Again I allowed myself to be convinced. I wanted this to work, wanted itto be fun, so it was going to be fun.We walked on to the school, blending in with the other school kids as wewent along. As the bell rang for the start of school we saw Hayley'sform tutor. Hayley went over and told her that she wouldn't be inregistration as she was helping set up in the computer room. Hayleywasn't a geek like me, but she did like computers and had almost freeaccess to the computer rooms. So. Oncewe got outside I could hear Lance moaning. My sister went around thecorner to see and stopped. She cocked her head to the side and lookedat Lance."What happened to him?" Alyssa asked"I punched him through a wall" Chapter FourOnce we arrived home I went straight to my room in search of some guyclothes. I frantically took off the girly dress and underwear my sisterhad dressed me in and got dressed in my normal clothes.I turned to see my sister standing in the doorway looking at me.