"I was as happy for him at that news as if he had taken me for himself. He had found a way to be of value to another, as I always strive to be. Even i... I wouldn't see him anymore, we remain close - and always will be.Overall he taught me that you can be special in my life even without taking ownership of me - or even being in an exclusive relationship.Bill will be my last old-style owner. If Samuel ever returns to me as Paul has to Anna, it will be as an equal - which is I feel the way he'd. What was there to mark my time on this earth? Nothing but atrail of broken hopes and dreams. What could I expect to look forwardto except more of the same?As I sat getting more and more drunk and reflected on the pain andmisery of my life, I wondered why I should keep on going? What was leftfor me except for more pain and misery? Better to end things now beforethe vultures had a chance to pick over the last pieces of my flesh.So here I found myself with my grandfather's antique revolver in. I asked the candy striper at the desk what room he was in and as I went to the elevator I saw a uniform watching me.I took the elevator to the fourth floor and started looking for the room Danny was in. I finally found it and he was alone watching television. I walked in and sat down in the chair next to the bed. He looked at me with a surprised look on his face. He was still showing the bruises from the beating and had his right arm in a cast. I was trying to keep a rein on my temper as I. "She gave him an odd look, and her head tilted to one side, with a littlesmile, then turned and headed out of the room saying, "I'll leave theseon the bed. When you're finished we'll see how well my guesses workedout. I'll make us some lunch while you're still working."Half an hour later he sent out his last email and walked through to thekitchen. Dorothy had prepared a salad, and unusually poured a couple ofglasses of rose wine to accompany it. The table was by a small windowthat looked out.