" She smiled politely, but she spoke emphatically. She finished with our paper work, blood tests and vital signs, and then showed us to Sanguan's offi...e.Sanguan met me with his customary polite, somewhat stiff manner, but when he examined my neovagina, he frowned. "You are a most unusual case, Miss Rivers. Most patients I criticize for not dilating enough. You dilate too vigorously. You are overly inflamed inside." I'm sorry. Am I OK for surgery?" I asked in panic."Of course, but it is swollen.. I was very frightened when I first went there. My mother had often warned me of the terrible things that men expected their wives to do in the bedroom, but it was our duty, she said, to let them satisfy their lusts in our bodies without complaint, and if we were lucky we would find a good and kindly man to love and keep us and who would not make too many gross demands. I had seen my father naked, but it came as a shock when my first customer removed his breeches to reveal what looked like a. He was quiet at first…it took a while to get to know him. But once you did, there was no one you trusted more.’ He added, with the hesitation of an afterthought but the seriousness of something he’d intended to say all along, ‘Seeing you here, there’s no doubt that he would have liked you.’ He gave Lenei one last smile and lay his hand over hers for a moment, ignoring the water droplets that sat on it like dew. For a warm second, she felt a rush of what it might have been like to have someone. I found that I envied the fact that he was so good with women, something I have never been. The handful of girls that had come into my life were always kept at arms distance because of Patricia. Anytime you have another secret woman in your life it creates problems, even if that woman is you. But strangely, I was equally jealous that Kevin had an eye for other girls. I knew it was stupid but it pained me somewhat because a great deal of the risk I was about to take was on his account. It pained.