I thinkI had learned from my hypno.This man who had demeaned me was now about to rape me.And I was accepting it.This was my new life.+++++Once you've ...een fucked a few thousand times, you learn that not allfucks are created equal. The ones we'd been getting from the machine?They're rare. They do happen and they are wonderful. But on a typicalday, you should not plan on having one.Most fucks are about what the man wants. That's fine. It's not alwaysfun--sometimes what he wants hurts you a little. How has your day been going?"Joel looked at Janie and they both burst out laughing."If you only knew," said Janie and Joel together. Then they had another burst of laughter."Well, if you don't want to tell me you don't have to I guess."Cat turned for the door. Janie took Cat's arm and pulled her to her. "Wait! We'll tell you everything. It's just so unbelievable. Joel and I can hardly believe it ourselves yet. Come in and sit down Cat. Would you like something to drink? I know I could use. I imagined most people might have the same reaction when Paul looked at them like that. More and more often I found myself unsure of how to behave around him. Our dynamic was shifting in all sorts of exciting ways, but I hadn’t gotten the hang of knowing when to be sexy and flirtatious and when to exist simply as his long-time friend. For his part, Paul didn’t seem to mind or even notice.“I figured you might be here pretty quick,” he quipped, “so I got ready before I texted you.”I laughed. And never, not once in the last five years had he called her, texted her, emailed her, or contacted in any way whatsoever. But he had stayed in contact with Gary, her stepdad? Had Nick been sleeping with him, too? She thought sardonically. And what gave him the right to even mention her late husband? She idly rubbed the place on her left hand where her wedding band had once been proudly displayed. A lot could happen in five years. She sighed. She wanted to march back across the hallway and slap.