In a small mountain town it is said that it is no great loss to lose a job, because you always have two more to fall back on. There is a great deal of...truth to that. We live close to a ski resort and most of the work is low wage tourist industry stuff. Most people string together 2 or more part time jobs to make ends meet. During the mud months (spring to you flatlanders) or late fall after the colors are gone but before the ski slopes open, there is almost no work at all. I do not want folks. Because he was gone so often, I had to handle everything myself. When I finally asked him to cut back and help, he agreed. For about two months he stayed close to home. But, as Erin got worse he started traveling more. I think he couldn’t face the fact that she was dying.’ ‘At the same time, he was insisting we keep to the schedule we had agreed on and have another child.’ You could see the pain on her face. ‘I couldn’t, Wiley, I just couldn’t. I was spending every hour with Erin, grieving her. She kicked of her heels for the last few hundred metres and tried to collect her thoughts.As she turned into our apartment block street, she noticed one of the block neighbours was some metres behind, she only knew him as CeeBee (CB) - he was tall, of black perhaps african or carribean origin and looked as though he worked out in an athletic way not a weight lifting build. She was drunk and even although he waved she ignored him, she was in a weird mood and couldn't be bothered with. ........... It was a saturday afternoon .I knew you were coming over and decided that to keep occupied I would chop some wood and keep busy-already my mind was filled with thoughts of how later we would be and the night ahead was to provide untold and new pleasures as we got to know each others likes and desires-would you be wearing that black negligee or those amazing stocking and suspendors I wondered and hoped.And how long before we got into bed from the moment you arrived-I was alreadt.