You still interested.”“OK. First, I gotta pee.”She made a quick trip to the bathroom. Years later, I learned that as she peed, she q...ietly filled the bulb-douche with water and rinsed the contraceptive foam from her vagina. She knew it was her fertile time. She had wanted to get pregnant for the last few months, but knew I would object. She had fantasized about how we might have ‘an accident’ – had actually tried and failed to entice me into unprotected sex several. . Well, I made a connection, but it wasn't the one I should have. I'd never laid eyes on any of those men. Trust me, I had every single person I'd encountered whose hand I couldn't shake burned into my brain, and these people were completely unknown to me." Perhaps they were among those whose hands you did shake. Merely opportunists seeking power?" Ship asked."I thought so too, for a long time. But since the Reaping, I've had a connection with every single person I've touched. Every one," Sam. It was not unlike my male one, a littlesofter and slightly higher.He got out of the bed, and to my relief he was wearing briefs, althoughthey showed pretty clearly he was well equipped, as they say ...Then he came over to me. and took my hand gently.He said, "What was the nightmare, hon? Are you worried about yoursurgery?"As he said this, memories flooded into my brain. This girl I had become,she was no stranger. She was me. A me who finally realized what she hadbeen missing her whole life -. .. want my breakfast now ... NOW!” he shouted fiercely.“But Josef ... oh well,” Ella gave up, seeing the angry determination in her charge’s face. “Wait OK”That was not a question, it was a slightly tetchy - as that wasn’t Ella’s demeanour, statement, as she removed the basin of wash water from the bed for safety. She left the cantankerous old man naked on his bed and went downstairs. In the kitchen she prepared the bowl of liquid cereal, put the kettle on, tea bag in the mug, and put a slice.