" One of them died Stacy." But you tried to save him and you did save the other two. And you are the most beautiful person I have ever seen" and she l...id her head against my shoulder and wept. "I was so scared" she sobbed. "I thought I'd lost you."I patted her back with my bandaged right hand. "But you didn't lose me Stacy. I'm right here and we're still together."Dear Bob,I know you don't ever want to hear from me again, but I have to make an attempt at contacting you if for no other reason. And that habit I have of tossing it back and smiling vacantly everytime someone asks me something. Other than that I'm pretty oblivious everything now. Its just so much dead air, you know what I mean. The only important thing about the doctor's office is taking that allure magazine. Like my body? Give it up will you? If you're that hung up on your body forget it. Like I cant even talk to you. I'd just as soon talk to nobody. I'd just as soon talk to myself. I'd just as soon talk to the wall.. It felt as if my heart has been torn apart. “We’re so sorry,” said Paul, hugging me from behind. “We thought it would help you come to realize what a beautiful soul you have as a husband.” Alexi tried to defend the enemy. “We felt what you felt on the set today.” Paul touched my neck. “It was love.” “And we wanted to include Gerald…” “So that you would not have to choose…” I turned around to look them in the eye, but then I saw Gerald, now fully clothed, leaving the room. Seeing his slumping. The gathering gladiators, nervous for their coming turn in the arena, and full of need and lust, stood around and cheered as Cotta cried out and sobbed when the gladiator who had brought him to this cell saddled up behind the lad, mounted him, penetrated the untried-by-cock hole with difficulty but with great interest, and fucked the boy to a seeding.The crowd was uncontrollable, and when one gladiator was finished, he gave way to the next, and then the next, and the next one after that. None.