I told her ok & went bathroom, I spend 10/15 min inside the bathroom & than come out. My mami was watching me what I am doing, she ask me Am I ok toda...?? Causes I am acting like different than other days. She told me are you sick or anything happened in college? Please tell me, don’t shy or hide anything from me, causes your parents are not in here now.I told her, I can’t tell you about my problem. She said you are always friendly with me, than why you can’t tell me?? She starts panic & I have. I let my gaze fall as he seemed to notice the shiver that ran threw me. “Why do you hide it, little one?” he would whisper. “Is it not enough that I know what you are, that you feel you need to hide your true self away from me?” he asked in that soft voice once again. I couldn’t force myself to look at him; I just balled my fists, as if trying not to answer him. “Forgive me,” I would whisper softly. “I have had to live as if I were human for quite some time.” I would stand after a moment only. I can sit for hours outside a cafe, people watching. The eclectic mix of the passers-by – the tourists; the elderly couples on their way home from the matinee, and the subtle shift as the sun goes down. The trannies tottering over the cobbles in their towering heels; a young rent boy walking hand in hand with a leather-clad sexagenarian; the groups of camp, flamboyant young men jostling and flirting as they head out for the evening; the lap dancers on their way to work. I spot Natalia sashaying. The Auparishtaka is practised also by unchaste and wanton women, female attendants and serving maids, i.e. those who are not married to anybody, but who live by shampooing.The Acharyas (i.e. ancient and venerable authors) are of opinion that this Auparishtaka is the work of a dog and not of a man, because it is a low practice, and opposed to the orders of the Holy Writ, and because the man himself suffers by bringing his lingam into contact with the mouths of eunuchs and women. But Vatsyayana.