The following Tuesday, as I was heading to Joannas apartment, I had a weird feeling in my stomach. Just as I got there, torrential rain started to pou... down outside. I knock on the door, and Joanna opens the door, wearing nothing but an extra long t shirt. She was clearly not wearing a bra as her nipples were sticking out.Again spellbound, I stood there silent for a minute. “Hey Ms.B” I say with a weak smile. “John! I thought Adam told you, but he’s on a field trip today”, Joanna said, a bit. I was so disgusted that I almost hurled on him. I mean come on, if you are going to try to kiss a girl, at least take a shower that week and use a breath mint or something. I was pushing him away, and thankfully my brother was watching out for me, so he dragged the jerk away before he got anywhere. Thank god, I want my first kiss to be something special, not some gross jerk forcing himself on me.I glanced down at the notebook and smiled as I recalled what was happening when I last wrote that. Elspeth, meanwhile, was focusing furiously on this wretched essay. I had told her to apply herself to her work and she was doing it, but I had not told her she had to like it. To motivate herself she thought of the forthcoming weekend in Surrey as a reward for all this effort, and she dredged out the paper with my writing on it to provide physical evidence of this incentive. Then, to her irritation, just as the essay was beginning to take shape, she discovered that a reference crucial to her. The first day of my new look, I got compliments from my coworkers and the customers. After feeling this new sense of confidence, I doubled down and began flirting a bit harder. I found reasons to touch his hand, when grabbing plates or giving a coy smile or wink to throw him off. After weeks of flirting back and forth, it all came to ahead when I was in the walk-in fridge loading up my tray with butter packets. Jimmy came in quietly, he came up behind me, pulled his body close to mine and.