But all too soon Isensed that Les was sad and wondered what it could be. He'd long sincecome to terms with his limitations, and was president of his f...aternity,while I was Queen of my sorority. In fact, they were matched together asthe best on campus. As such, we were both dating pretty steadily.For me, the dating was simply a duty as I only really enjoyed itwhenever Les and I dated. We'd given up the apartment after beingaccepted after our freshman year, now I wondered if we should. By the time you met me it was a bunch of guys almost every night. And then bam along comes the guy who is worth giving up all that sex for: you." I know all this," I said."Please ... let me tell this in my own way. It'll be faster in the end."That guy is you. Not 'was' you... 'is' you. The sex with that one guy blew away all the sex I'd ever had in my life. By a mile. But the sex wasn't why I went with him. I really liked him at first. He was nice. He had a nice mother. He was honest. He took. But we took a little side trip to see the Mark Twain National Forest, and that's where everything started to go wrong. First we got lost on a detour, and then Mom crashed the van trying to avoid a big bear that was standing in the road. We ended up getting stranded and having to walk to a main road, in a pouring rain, and were picked up by two guys. That was the first day of the second part of my life--the second part of all of our lives, actually. If I had asked you to guess how my life has. His fire had died and I seemed to be the only one left to remember his former glory - and to be honest - I missed it. As much as I thought I hated him, I craved talking and arguing. Every morning, I had gotten up thinking of how I could push his buttons and make him snap. It was such an important point in my life, that living without it scared me more than I could have ever imagine. By the end of yet another silent, boring day, I head for home with thoughts running through my mind, forming.