"I'm so messed up. Sometimes I feel like I want to die just to escapethis...this..." Body?" This life. I don't hate being a guy, I just only feel righ... when I'm agirl. Seriously, how do transsexuals go their whole lives knowing they'rein the wrong body?" Some don't. Some can't cope. Do you feel like you want to go full-timeTS?" No, no way. I don't want to be a 'TS' I want to be a woman." Mike, you know that's not possible. Lots of people feel the same way butfate has dealt them a hand that just. I awoke the next morning when the doctors and nurses were making their rounds. Darcy looked over at me and asked, "Have you been here all night?"I nodded my head and said, "This way I can tell everyone I slept with you."She actually smiled at me. I told her that I had to go home and clean up a little but that I would be back later to see her. I wanted to try and kiss her but there were too many nurses doing their jobs.I went home and cleaned up and stopped by my mom's to make sure the kids got. "We're about half-way." He explained, checking the sights quickly, and Caerys shook her head."You couldn't have lied and said 'nearly there', could you?" And then have you turn on me in a few hundred yards? No." We'd have been happy until then, though. Now we're just going to be..." Will you shut up, girl!" he snapped. "I'm trying to make sure we aren't being followed. Shut up and let me get on with it..."Rue du Normandie, Paris, November 22ndCaerys' feet ached, her head hurt, her eyes were. She was so beautiful. He watched her perfect breasts rise and fall with the slow, peaceful rhythm of her breathing. She shifted on the bed, let out a soft moan in her sleep. James felt a thrill run up his spine just from that little sound. Last night seemed like a blur. They had made love twice after the first time, then fallen asleep in one another’s arms. He had lost his virginity to this absolutely gorgeous woman, and she had enjoyed it. That thought made him smile. Des rolled over and.