Quickly you pull it off flashing me just long enough for me to get a good glimpse of your chest. I decide I don’t need to spend any more time messin... around with the controls of the boat and join you in sun bathing. We both laugh as I lay down beside you. Slipping my sunglasses over my eyes and propping myself up on my elbows I survey the ocean and the sun and emptiness of everything around. Reaching over I massage your thigh, the oily feel of the lotion makes my hands slide easily all over. What was the problem with settling with her? Of course, I had forgotten she was set on going to her family in New Zealand. It eventually dawned on me that the problem was that I was not a complete person. It was precisely that I had no history. I was living on inadequate data, and when the other data came through — if it came through — it might change things drastically. So what to do? I concluded that it meant I couldn’t make a solid commitment to Trish. She had always said she was not into. Next time, cards at Jane’s. I liked her spoon collection -- one from nearly every state. “Trades most of them. I’ve hardly been anywhere.”I said I’d write my friends in Charleston if they wanted an Oregon.“Jane and I are doing watch this Saturday,” Eustice told me, helping our hostess with the coffee. Back in Charleston, we never drank coffee while we played. Out here, everybody just lays down their hands -- face down, but not always -- while we add the cream and sugar.“Watch?”“Coast watch.. "In less than half an hour that little lobe is going to have a pink little heart hanging from it." I'm gwad because my sleeve already has a heart hanging from it." Yep you're seeing what you're seeing," you say loudly and firmly as you carry me into the parking area."People are staring at us and looking shocked." Hey yall! I am doing this of sy my own free will. I no most of you have seen me here for a year and without a love interest. Well' now you know. I'm gay, I'm a sissy' I wear women's.