The nurse handed me a cup and told me to give her aurine sample. I froze in place. How in the world was I going to do that?I peed all over myself the ...ast time I tried to aim my urine. I walkedinto the bathroom followed the rules involved in a clean urine catch. Iwas relieved to see the plastic contraption in the bowl of the toilet.It had a little holder in the middle for the cup. All I had to do wassit down and with minimal aiming, pee. It took me about 5 minutes tofinally go, and I was glad. He thought about theoutdoor balcony off of his father's bedroom. No, that area was above thekitchen and they might hear his footsteps. Or see him jump! Jess turnedand went into his bedroom and closed the door. He examined the window andslowly opened it. It made little or no noise. Jess looked at the screen.The screen was now the only barrier to the outside world. He tucked thegun inside his pants and took a deep breath. He put his right hand ontothe screen and pushed as he closed his fingers. ”All of a sudden the meaning of “anything” became perfectly clear. It meant ANYTHING.“How old are you Emily?” I asked“I just turned eighteen last month.” She said in a quiet voice.“And you Lila?”“I’m thirty four.” Lila explained. “I was sixteen when I had Emily. David is not her father.”I stared at Lila in the mirror. “And the two of you are just going to let me do anything I want to you.”“Yes.” Was her simple response.“You don’t have too.” I said. “I will take you home and forget this whole. " I felt hurt that she had kept it from me but at the same time I did understand."I was hoping they were wrong. I didn't want to worry you." How did they find it?" My doctor found it through a pap smear," she said."What can I do?" You can be there for me. I'm scared."I held her and kissed her tears. "I'll be here for you. When are you scheduled to go into the hospital?" Friday. After the surgery, they want to do some chemotherapy to kill any tumor cells that are left."Something came to me. "Is.