This is, of course, over a decade after the humiliation that I suffered. Today I feel pretty well recovered, but I guess that is obvious since I'm sha...ing it here.I had been having abdominal pains, kind of like cramps. My annual exam wasn't due for another four months, so I had put off going to the doctor. Evidently, I put it off too long.Honestly, I don't remember where I was, but I know that my mother was there. There was a searing pain, like a red-hot poker being jammed through me. It hurt. She tried to channel the strong emotion by screaming. She tried to get away from it. Squirmed and trashed on the bed, but the sensation held her and shook her as if she'd been a kite in a hurricane. Through the twirl of emotions she heard a weak voice in her head asking how it was possible that such a beast could make her feel like this.He shoved into her again and every atom in her body felt the penetration. Blood red filled her vision as pain and pleasure washed through her in an insane mix.. I guess we were lucky, in a way. We were part of the last generation ofkids who were sent outside to play on their own, no adults hovering overus.We were expected to handle everything short of drawing blood on our own,and we did.Now, I know you probably means things were scary. We tend to think of kidjustice as something closer to lord of the flies than lord of the manor,but the fact was we were all unconsciously aware of the fact that ifthings got too out of hand, the adults might Get. "JJ was watching Erica preparing something on a flat grill and she turned to see him watching her. "We are having French toast this morning," she said as she chuckled, causing JJ to laugh aloud. Watching her intently, he had never seen French toast prepared the way she was doing it however five minutes later, after his second bite, he decided it was the cook, and each had a style. His mom never made hers the way he saw Erica work, however both were delicious.JJ's eyes kept dropping to her.