Time up. Hamish stated. I pretended to look releaved but I was actually over the moon in my head. James then said okay from now on anything that happ...ns here stays here, okay. Hamish and I nodded. Then Hamish said. have you guys ever fantasized about guys? I felt my dick throb again. I then said, I have fantasized about guys. You guys in particular. there was an awkward silence until Hamish said same. I couldnt believe what I was hearing. My fantasies were coming true. I saw Hamish started to. The sandy-haired thirteen-year-old stared at the scenery flashing by as the train picked up speed, and his mind lapsed back to the Saturday it had happened. Ma Baylor had gone shopping and Pa Baylor had gone to a ballgame. Billy was in the bathroom playing his new game--the game that had almost overnight become his favorite pastime. It felt so good when he played with himself, so good that he saw no reason not to do it often. And though he felt a vague guilt afterwards, he pushed it aside, for. " (All adults like to meet and talk with other mothers!)She brought me inside her home and it was spacious but cluttered with furniture and tons of pictures everywhere! There were a lot of pictures taken of groups. Mrs. Russell was in all of them and about 12 young girls as well. Each had a little label with the year on it and it also had the name of the church and "Girl's Choir."There were five of these pictures and Mrs. Russell noticed me looking at them and said, "Ricky, those are all. ?This body is making you soft, Orchid,? she whispered in a velvety contralto while shaking those thoughts away from consciousness. ?These people have to Pay for what they did. I can see that they do, and won?t give up that determination.? Still, the seeds of guilt had grown into real doubts about her purpose, no matter how much she denied the facts to herself. * * *Ine watched her most troubled, and dangerous Flower Child wrestle with conscience and thirst for revenge with a sadness.