I know about this place because of rumors. Everyone says it's a gay bar, a lesbian bar. The people who say that make funny noises, roll their eyes and...laugh. I do the same, pretending to find such an idea equally revolting. I'm fifteen-years-old, nearly sixteen in a few months, and I'm so desperate it hurts.I go to school and see girls that I know. I'm drawn to them sexually now, emotionally. I want to reach out and touch them, to confess my feelings. One girl in particular, several years older. For a crazy moment I wondered how, with all his experience, Steve would go about satisfying her.Then I noticed his eyes, which had been lowered in one of his long, sexy stares, were closed. His head slumped onto his chest and he was out. I was pretty high myself, but I opened up the closet and got out the army cot for him to sleep on. "I'll make it up, Bill," Lil said, giving me an off center kiss. "You undress him." There wasn't much to it. He was out like a light. I was careless pulling off. And,” she said, placing her finger on her lips, then on mine, “so would I.”“Bethany...” I sighed. “It’s...”“Stop,” she interrupted. “I told you I’m no little girl any more. I don’t have a wild-eyed fantasy that when we graduate, you’ll suddenly change course and show up at my door with an engagement ring.” She smiled, “But if you do, I’ll accept it. Even Joyce has outgrown her fantasy. Oh, like me, I’m sure she still holds a glimmer of hope, but Kara pretty effectively put Joyce in her place.. He had gotten us a table for four and he seemed to be a nice guy,” Jim said.“Joanna hung back a little bit, but Celia introduced her to Kevin. She gave him a shy but friendly “Hello,” and it was obvious that they were both taken with each other. Kevin invited us all to sit at the table, and we had a great time catching up over beers for the next hour or so.“Joanna and Kevin seemed to be getting along great as they laughed and flirted on the other side of the table. It was a tall bar table with.