This morning I am still angry. When he gets back Ken is going to get an earful. I will make it clear that he is never to be so selfish again. This is ... conversation that needs to be face to face, not over the telephone. Unfortunately, that conversation cannot happen until Friday or Saturday. On the upside, the rawness of my anger will have had time to dissipate. Sunday October 26, 1980 Dear Diary: My world has collapsed. I have been unfaithful to my husband. Woe is me, I have been fucked by a. Living so far out in suburbia means I always get aseat. The drive takes almost an hour and the passengers are all menlike me, travelling into their jobs as secretaries, clerks, cleaners,and tellers. Everyone is well made up and while some of the clothes arecheaper than others they are all designed to make the wearer look moreattractive.7.45 am. On time. Quickly into the small pastry shop, pick up somecroissants, then on to work. My boss won't be in for at least anotherninety minutes but there. “ Ich gebe ihr einen Kuss auf die Wange. „Ich liebe dich so wie du bist und ich liebe es wenn du mit mir und meiner Lust spielst.“ Antwortete ich. „und warum hast du nie etwas davon gesagt? Dass es dir vielleicht auch gefällt dich so zu stylen?“ „ich hatte Angst, Angst davor dass du meinst etwas wäre anders, ich konnte nicht zurück, ich hatte die Rolle eingenommen und konnte sie nicht ändern weil ich es dir nicht hätte erklären können. Und je länger dies so war desto weniger hatte ich das. Cuffs on her ankles and a limiting chain I grab her ankles and she slides to the floor looking around as if able to see as I pull her to the middle of the room, turning her sideways I pull her to her feet attaching a rope to her hands she realizes she is limited. Grabbing her hair I tell to be quiet and stand as I grab a bar attaching it to her collar, several smacks form a crop get her straight as I add a belt around her waist with a chain from her hands. Holding her hair I give her a dozen.