Being young and new I was up for anything and that was exactly the right attitude to have to make the most of living in Manhattan. I had a studio on t...e Upper East Side and was earning a good salary for the time. I had plenty to do and lots of girlfriends. New York girls at the time (who knows? maybe still) were just as horny as the guys, as far as I could tell. There were plenty of times I would hook up with a girl I'd just met in the bar that night and have a couple of weeks together and then. "WHAT" i shouted. "Please don't ask anything, don't say anything, just trust me and drive". I just sat there with my eyes closed, thinking about what Claire had just said. Trust me? Could i? There had never been a moment in our lives together where i wouldn't have trusted her with my life. After a very disturbing minute, i started the car, put it in reverse and drove off. We didn't say another word until the next morning...It had been rough getting to sleep. My thoughts kept me awake until 4. I don't remember what happened after that, I remember being conscious, I remember the pain when Chris held me, remember even my clothes feeling painful against my skin, but what happened, what was said, I have no idea. The first clear memory was later in Chris's car driving home, her apologising over and over for agreeing to help me, for arranging the time with Toni, Ma'am.Everything was too raw for me to say what I felt, so I just sat there, whimpering every so often as the car bumped or I. My body wants more.I drive home hot and wanting more. I can't take it. Pete does this to me more and more. It gets deeper and deeper. I am almost ready to tell him to just touch me too. I am so jealous that Amber is still tied in the back of that truck. I think about driving over to their house and demanding more. I turn out onto the street. I start to hear towards their house. I turn a block before I get there. I chicken out. I cower and turn around. I cannot get myself to be strong enough to.