The drive took over an hour, the second part of which was less tense butI was still a basket case. As Karen turned into a large mall she pattedmy han... in a reassuring manner. "Honey, for your first trip I thoughtit would be easier if we traveled further from home where there is lesschances of running into anyone we know. I know this is hard for you butyou will live through it. Today we are going to get you a new workwardrobe because I want you to look nice for your job. I really likePenny. "Robbie will you please tell me what's going on with you? I can't justsit back anymore and do nothing. I've been worrying about you for awhile, but lately you've really started scaring me!" she pleaded.Still in shock I respond, "Jennifer just what the hell are you doinghere? What if your friends see you talking to me? Aren't you worriedwhat they might say? Don't worry about me, I'll be fine!" I tried tosound as confident as possible."Dammit drop the bullshit!! I know you're not okay and you. It doesn’t have to matter to anybody. They’re on their own. Alone.’ ‘No family help?’ ‘Not that I know of. If they’re around, we don’t see much of them, that’s for sure.’ ‘Cathy, how the hell do you know all this stuff?’ I had to ask. ‘People just like to talk to me. I’m a very good listener,’ she told me with a big smile. We sat quietly enjoying the crisp air, finishing our drinks. ‘You’re a good neighbor too, Cathy. Thanks,’ I said softly. ‘That’s what neighbors are for,’ she said, reaching. Looking through the tapes, I found one labeled: 5-5-1979 George, Amy, Nick and Daniel. That must be a gang bang, I thought. Wow! Eighteen years ago! I popped it into the VCR.The opening scene started with mom, much younger than now, obviously. Her features where a little different and her hair longer. She was cradling a baby in her arms. Nick? It suddenly flashed in my mind, it must have been me! Yes, eighteen years ago, I was about one year of age. It sure was me whom mom was cradling in that.