Rachel respected her father and was affectionate with him, partially I am sure to make me long for the same.Her resentment of me grew after I had begu... working, four years earlier, and traveling about ten days a month to install and maintain computer and word processing systems at several different organizations. With more money to spend on her, I thought she would be happier, but no, she played the guilt card. "You're never here, Mother," was her frequent refrain. She also saw in me the. .” he said. “But?” she said, looking concerned. “But, what about Jenna? That might be the real fly in the ointment,” he said. She took on a thoughtful look. “Yes, I see what you mean. Well, for one, she will finally find out who her real father is. Yes, it will be hurtful for David to finally find out too. He’ll be in a blue funk for a pretty good period of time; I’m certain of that, but he’ll get over it. He’ll have to. And, we won’t be cutting him out of her life. He just won’t be her only. She looked to the heavens for a moment, then her eyes fell reluctantly to the inscribed words below: ‘the tide abides for, tarrieth for no man, stays no man, tide nor time tarrieth no man’ Gales of anguish overtook her. She curled up on the ground above her husband and felt the cold fury of a thousand tears scream for release. Her’s had been a silent fury — now grown vile and powerful, a force she could no longer contain. ◊◊◊◊◊ Dorothy Fisher sat in the black leather passenger seat of a 1973. ------------------July 16thYesterday was the worst day/birthday of my life. I got drunk and kissed Matt. He won't return my calls or texts. I'm fucked. When school starts.....I feel like killing myself. Everyone is going to know. Brandon Mackinaw already asked me for a blowjob at work yesterday. I think he was serious too. I feel like crap.------------------July 19thMy mom and I had an argument last night. She called me a faggot and says that dad would be ashamed of me if he were alive. and.