" Beverly's face goes perfectly stoic at therevelation."I thought that was what you always wanted," she says. "Ever since youwere little, when you use... to play doctor with your cousins. You made meget you that doctors and nurses playset when you were seven..." ...Because I like dressing up," Sarah confesses. "I love fashion. I wantto be a designer when I'm older, I want to make clothes." Much to mygirlfriend's- and my own- relief, a warm smile spreads over Beverly'sface."You know," the older. .. if that is what he needs and wants... ?" She was looking at me suggestively, with a question that could not be asked.My whole life just came to an important junction. I didn't believe grandpa's bravado until this moment, until grandma looked me in the eye as if to ask if I really wanted to have sex with her or was her husband just dominating the situation as he tends to do. Then the old man's early suggestion echoed in my adolescent brain, about taking charge and being strong - this was one. Priestess Zara went straight tobusiness and demanded that he tell her where she could find the herb Arak. Thetrader was submissive at first, but then his attitude changed. He refused totell her what she asked and acolytes became furious when he began bargaining forsexual favours. Zhai and Trel are about to test how sharp their knifes are onthe half blood trader, but priestess stops them before the blades can make ascratch on that deformed body of his.Zara demand the information again, but the. School was very hard today, and it made you sad. Your daddy, who loves you very much, is sitting next to you on your bed because you just finished telling him all about how sad you feel."I repeated this scenario twice more to make sure it had sunk into her mind then I counted to 5, bringing her out of trance.As expected she looked momentarily confused, but before she could focus on that confusion, I quickly interrupted, "Chani, " I started a little forcefully to grab her attention, "I'm sorry.