I had just spent 4 years in a very ‘steady’ relationship, 4 years of ‘making love’, I had had my experience of a ‘nice’, ‘stable’ girl...and wanted to have some fun before settling down. I wanted a girl to have some fun with for a year or two, a girl that will drag you into the toilet for a quickie when you’re meeting her parents, snog some random girl in a bar to get you going or turn up on your doorstep with nothing on but a tiny coat. Even if it was never going to go anywhere and I couldn’t. ” He slapped my shoulder pad and moved onto another player. I watched him for a minute and decided he was becoming the leader of the team, even though he was still a junior. He was my friend even though I had let him down some this season. I decided it was time to rectify that.I don’t know if Flanagan had watched film of us from last week or not, but it did not matter after their first snap of the game. I always had a blitz option on the first snap if I saw an opportunity. This time, I decided. .. Right."-Friday, 5:30pm, Al's Big Boy Diner-"Okay here's the deal. Three grand..." Up front." What? Sid, where'd that come from?" Attica. I did a wooden nickel and I didn't drop a dime. Up front." I got two, what'r we arguing here?" I want three up front, ain't no arguin' Johnny." It's a pop-pop job, c'mon, here's two, take it ... Shit. Happy?" Well. It ain't three." Don't worry about it. Get the other one at Denny's after. I'll buy ya a freakin' burger." Two burgers." Shut the fuck up! .... This is nearly every night. I hate that I am notnormal. I hate that every day more and more people are finding out. Thisis why I have to say goodbye to this world.Mom, remember that time when I woke up and wet my briefs. I hid in thetoilet and wouldn't come out. I hid the briefs. I know you found thembecause they were not there later. I went through my drawers and couldn'tfind any briefs or boxers. I started crying. As usual. You came to my aidand hugged me until I stopped crying. You looked.